As usual, i left this space unattended for months and then have come back today with a new song. I had written the first line of this song around a month back...but never really made an effort to fill in the remaining spaces before a few moments ago when one of my friends mentioned that the line has a deep meaning....so taking a cue from her and working up my elixir influenced stream of thoughts...just penned this number...which i would like to title....Voice in my head......

There is a voice in my head, which says I am dead

I am not scared of dying but it's the voice from the past, which I dread

There are colours in my crayon box, which have lost its shades,

I am not scared of the fading pictures, but it's the face from the past, which I dread

 

Life has been a game of dots and spaces,

Where I have come across, lots of faces,

Life has been chaos of silence and noise,

But I can hide at any corner, but cant escape that voice.

 

There are shades of grey in my curls which indicates a part of my life is sold,

I am not scared of turning old, but there are stories still left untold,

There are feelings of past, which still leaves me most times cold,

I am not scared of the crawling within, but I want those stories to be told,

 

Life has been a game of dots and spaces,

Where I have come across, lots of faces,

Life has been chaos of silence and noise,

But I can hide at any corner, but cant escape that voice.

 

There are whiffs of fragrance in the air, which carries me to my past,

I am not scared of the memories, but it's the aromas, which never lasts,

There are photo frames of shadows in my walls, which remembers the old cast,

I am not scared of living with them, but it's the journey from cradle to grave which moves so fast.

 

Life has been a game of dots and spaces,

Where I have come across, lots of faces,

Life has been chaos of silence and noise,

But I can hide at any corner, but cant escape that voice.

 

ciao...

Life means: A winter evening, 4 friends, mild rain, 4 drinks
Life means: Rs 100/- for petrol, 2 rusty old bikes, an open road
Life means: Maggi noodles, a hostel room, 3 hungry friends, 3:25 AM
Life means: 1 prep leave, 1 night, 1 book, 8 duffers
Life means: 1 gurl/guy, one phone number, 4 friends and a fight
Life means: 3 old friends, 3 different cities, 3 coffee mugs and google talk
Life means: 4 different friends, 4 different cities, 1 heartbreak. counselling over call conferencing
Life mean: unknown faces, a night long party, some beautiful pictures

Life means .....Friends.......'Happy Friendship Day' :)

ciao..

Ever wondered about a place where you and your loved one are all alone? AR Rahman gives you just that in 'Kahin To…' from Jaane Tu Ya Jaane Na… :)

kahin to, kahin to, hogi woh
duniya, jahaan tu mere saath hai
jahaan main, jahaan tu,
aur jahaan
bas tere mere jazbaat hain

hogi jahaan subah teri
palkon ki kirnon mein
lori jahaan chaand ki
sune teri baahon mein…

jaane na kahan woh duniya hai
jaane na woh hai bhi ya nahin
jahaan meri zindagi mujhse
itni khafa nahin…

jaane na kahan woh duniya hai
jaane na woh hai bhi ya nahin
jahaan meri zindagi mujhse
itni khafa nahin…

saansein kho gayi hai kiski aahon mein…
main kho hoon jaane kiski baahon mein…
manzilon se raahein dhoondti chali….
aur kho gayi hai manzil kahin raahon mein

kahin to, kahin to…
hai nasha teri meri har mulaqat mein
hothon se, hothon ko
choomte… rehte hain hum har baat pe

kehti hai fiza jahaan
tere zameen-asmaan
jahaaan hai tu meri hassi
meri khushi meri jaan…

jaane na kahaan woh duniya hai
jaane na woh bhi ya nahin
jahaan meri zindagi mujh se
itni khafa nahin…

jaane na kahaan woh duniya hai
jaane na woh bhi ya nahin
jahaan meri zindagi mujh se
itni khafa nahin…

ciao...

P.S - every time i listen to this song...i feel an emptiness within me...its been more than 2 years....but am still stuck there....this song is for all those who are still together...just one bit of advise...u never realize what you have lost till you lose it..so dont lose it, coz it kills you...yeah it really kills you

This is for all my banker friends...a fwd mail reproduced here.....

Last night as I lay sleeping
I died or so it seemed,
Then I went to heaven
But only in my dream

Up there St Peter met me
Standing at the pearly gates,
He said "I must check your record
Please stand here and wait."

He turned and said "Your record
Is covered with terrible flaws,
On earth I see you rallied
For every losing cause."

I see that you drank alcohol
And smoked and used drugs too,
Fact is, you've done everything
A good person should never do.

We can't have people like you up here
Your life was full of sin,
Then he read the last of my record
Took my hand and said "Come in."

He led me up to the big boss and said
"Take him in and treat him well",
He used to work in Banking
He's done his time in hell ...

ciao...

Jaane Tu...Ya Jaane Na....i have fallen in love with this movie and its song.s..a different kind of music...deep meaning lyrics and somehow it strikes a chord in your heart....just see the lines "aise main koi kaise apne aausuon ko roke...aur kaise koi soch le everything gonna be ok" ....isnt it exactly what you hear from others when you are down...and isnt it exactly how you feel about that other person....

hmmmm thats life...you move on...some people think that you have taken the setbacks in the past very positively and you still behave normally in situations that they would not be able to withstand...but they simple see...the smiles hiding the tears...and they only hear my silence coz its the sounds which i fear.....

lets end it from where i started...here is the starting lyrics of Kabhi Kabhi from Jaane Tu...Ya Jaane Na.....

Kabhi kabhi aditi zindagi mein yuhi koi apna lagta hai,
Kabhi kabhi aditi wo bichad jaaye to ek sapna lagta hai,
Aise mein koi kaise apne aasuon ko behne se roke?
Aur kaise koi soch le everything's gonna be ok?

Kabhi kabhi to lage zindagi mein rahi naa khushi aur naa mazaa,
Kabhi kabhi to lage har din mushkil aur har pal ek sazaa,
Aise mein koi kaise muskuraye, kaise hass de khush hoke?
Aur kaise koi soch le everything gonna be ok?

Soch zara jaane jaa tujhko hum kitna chahte hai,
Rote hai hum bhi agar teri aankhon mein aasu aate hai,
Gaana to aata nahi hai magar phir bhi hum gaate hai,
Ki aditi maan kabhi , kabhi saare jahan mein andhera hota hai,
Lekin raat ke baad hi to savera hota hai..

woke up to the soothing sound of pouring rain,

with every drop splashing my face, it tried to wash away all the past pains

remembered the recurring dream, the last time I touched your face

realized have woken up again without your head on my shoulders and cant cuddle you in our own sweet ways

 

cant hug you, cant hold you, cant ask you to wipe my tears

but can promise you one thing, will wait for you for another thousand years

cant own you, cant touch you, cant ask you to pull me near

but can promise you one thing, will keep on loving you for another thousand years

 

walked my way past the woods with mist covering the ways

the mist droplets weaved magic with the sun rays and created your face

walked to the white sands and entered the realms of wide blue sea

my reflection smiled at me and asked, again alone, where is she

 

cant hug you, cant hold you, cant ask you to wipe my tears

but can promise you one thing, will wait for you for another thousand years

cant own you, cant touch you, cant ask you to pull me near

but can promise you one thing, will keep on loving you for another thousand  years

 

walked across the horizon and laid down under the starlit sky,

the lights asked me to keep that smile on as she does not want me to cry

our souls are still together, the heart still beats the same beat

the memories will live on forever, it will me just me and you who will die

 

cant hug you, cant hold you, cant ask you to wipe my tears

but can promise you one thing, will wait for you for another thousand years

cant own you, cant touch you, cant ask you to pull me near

but can promise you one thing, will keep on loving you for another thousand years...

okies the phoneix has risen again...this time not from the ashes but from the lazy slumber that he had set himself into

a lot of water would have passed below the bridge and some of the babies born when i last posted something meaningful will now be crawling away fast and playing hide and seek with their moms

so lemme give you what i have been upto before crazy pics starts getting crazier again

right now am perched up in pune...i think the last update from me was that i was handling global accounts in a global major in express industry....from there i moved on and had a short stint with an Indian major in the life insurance business....and now i have moved to pune in march and am with the global leader in the banking sector managing their wealth vertical....... life is very hectic and i barely get time to pursue my other activities in life....proffessional responsibilities and authorities have increased manifolds during the last year or so and now with a total team of 22 reporting to me directly and indirectly...i am more or less on my desired path of proffessional growth

in my personal front....things have happened and broken off...have been on and off in an relationship....have bought up an apartment in kolkata from my parents and off late have been busy in trying to finish up the interiors...in pune am perched up in the happening part of the city called koregaon park.....but due to hectic work schedule never saw anything happening to others or to me ;)

parents are coming down on tuesday....so clearing up the mess called my room...its tough to clean up this decent sized apartment and i have been struggling for the past 2 days....

among my batchmates...some ppl mentioned in this space have entered the blissful world of marraige (how blissful is for them to answer :P ) ....indu....anamika...muktesh to name them...saunak's is on the cards....sajal i still have no clue whether he will turn bald first or get married first....

well thats all for the day....lunch and my drink awaits...will come back and this time very soon...

thanks everyone who have waited paitently for this space to get updated...thanks for your inspiration and motivation...especially appu and mini thanks a lot for the support

4 months, this space has seen no updates, am sorry for that...but the wait is over...this space will be updated soon...

thanks for holding paitence

ciao..

There are sometimes when you stop posting about ur life..but a frnd comes up and says hey lets relive some of the best memories we have lived together...

It really means a lot when someone decides to write about some of the best times lived in life....the waves of euphoria..nostalgic memories...something which really means LIFE

today Appu gave me the best gift in a long while by posting From the torn pages of my diary -II

Thanks a lot swthrt..u r mah beeeeeeeeeeeeeeeest frnd :)

ciao..

P.S - Chal kickboxing ho jaaye :D

This is something which i had written a couple of years back, but would like to reproduce it again today here for the benefit of thousands who are appearing for CAT 2007

ever since i cracked cat...i have got numerous enquiries...all leading to one question 'what it takes to crack cat?'...and here is my simple take on it

it's all about attitude....the attitude to win..the attitude to fight....the attitude to say 'it's just another day and i'll make it sure it's my day'

i have always beleived that in life the biggest enemy is not external compeitition...but the enemy lies within you....it lies in your self doubts about your abilities....it lies in your nervousness...it lies in your inability to bounce back...it lies in you still pondering over your past failures instead of dreaming about your future...

the whole battle to succeed in any competetive enviroment is faught in the mind...therefore tomorrow when the sun rises...take it as just another day...and have the self belief that 'its my day' .....start the day with a smile and carry it throughout the day...it not only spreads positive vibes around you but also within you....

another tip for everyone - if you find a particular section or the entire set tough....dont get nervous, if its tough for you....its gonna be tough for everyone...so dont lose it ....get cracking and give it your best shot.

at the end of the day...always keep it in your mind that, you gave your best shot and be proud of that...in the end if your heart says you gave your best shot...nothing else matters...

 

all the best to everyone....may November 18 be your day....